Escape

I wonder if i can be a bear.
Sleep and hibernate for months and to wake up to a whole new world.
I wish i can escape from all these.

Pretending

And yet i still pretend
I pretend that everything is good
I pretend that i am well
I pretend that i am playing
I pretend that i am happy

[FANFICTION] COFFEE AND VANILLA

a/n : all of a sudden, ideas keep pouring in for this fanfic. So i'll just keep on writing this while the muse is visiting lol. First chapter will be up tomorrow~


PROLOGUE

The bell rings as the door was pushed open. A slight draft of cold air sneaks into the shop and she shivers, turning her gaze to the door.

Time seems to stop, and the air is suddenly unbearably hot. Her breath comes out in soft pants, hitching slightly when she saw him.

Yes, him.

[FANFICTION] Jaejoong's Heart

a/n : this was just for fun. My first ever fanfic that i wrote last year. Still have a few more but it's just simply sitting rotting away. I have tons of ideas but the passion somehow not there. But i promise that i'll finish it someday -peace-

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His heart is dead. Lifeless.

It might beat, pumping blood through his body, but to him it feels nothing.

He looks around the apartment. Empty. Quiet.

Jaejoong sigh.

He lost counts on how many he had sighed since this morning. He continues with the furniture’s arrangement, pushing the couch here and there, looking for a perfect place that will fit.

‘Hyung, let me help you” Changmin offered to help him. “It looks heavy.”

‘Yah Jaejoong-hyung, why are we moving couches and tables on our day-off? We’re supposed to be resting’ Junsu’s squeaky whining reaches his ears. Yunho and Yoochun were laughing at a sulking Junsu.

Jaejoong turns, smiling, but all he saw was an empty space. ‘Because I like the living room to look different once in a while.’ He whispers to nobody but himself.

He sighs again.

His heart, it’s lonely.


***

Work

Some look at work as a burden they must shoulder and indeed it is a heavy yoke to bear. To a lucky few, work is a place to express their creative spirit. Sometimes things don't always work out the way we hope, but we still do our best no matter what. Even though the hours are long and hard, there are even times when we don't want to do it. But hey, it is indeed a privilege to find a job and be able to support oneself.
But sometimes, i do miss my school life. Those carefree days, breaking rules, nothing to worry about except exams and results.

-sighs-

In heaven

We understand death for the first time when he puts his hand upon one whom we love.

To lose your parents is something that you dreaded so much. You pray every single day that they will live to see you get married, have kids, etc, etc. But a dream is just a dream, and worse, this dream of mine will never ever came true.

It hurts, when you see other people talking happily about their parents and you have to put up a poker face so that nobody know that it really is killing you inside. I still cry, and will always cry when i think about my parents. Losing my mom wasn't that heartbreaking because i can already foresee it. She's been sicked for 3 years, been in and out of the hospital. I even prayed to God to spare her the agony because i couldn't bear to see her like that. Losing my dad however, was something i never expected it to be. To have him exhaled his last breath right in front of me so peacefully..............

I'm proud to have them as my parents, and i hope they were proud of me as their daughter. I'm trying to be brave and to continue with my life, though it's a big hurdle without parents giving you mental support.

I can’t repay the lessons that you taught when I was small...

Or give you gift for gift the daily treasures I recall.

I can’t return encouragement and loving words of praise...

In quite the way you did for me through all my childhood days.

But there is one gift that I can give, It’s all the love you’ve earned...

For love is what you always taught... And love is what I learned.

Alfatihah

Flower Garden

Gosh....another one makes its appearances. Sooner or later my house will turn into a garden lol.

I've never paid much attention to him. We weren't even close in university, just a junior-senior relationship and we met during club activities. No more, no less. I don't even know how he got my number O_o
This is not what i need at the moment. Still too much in my mind. Still too many things i want to do.
Whatever he has in his mind, i hope he will understand what i have in mine.

Surprise

In the midst of having my heart painfully crushed by a one simple phone call, i received this surprise. Surprise, surprise indeed!

Whoever that person is, thank you for making me smile again, though i hope it's not a prank or anything. Now...    who are you?

Heart

Heart is a fickle thing, don't you think so?
It yearns for someone, it aches, it breaks, it hurts and scattered around. But it can loves without condition, without restraint, full of joy and happiness and like a river, it flows and flows.

Wish you happiness for eternity with your love one. 

Proud

Proud. Yes i am. Proud dpt laki camni. Jejala idaman, bukan setakat malaya, tp satu dunia. Oh yeah!!! Bile tgk.. waduh... hati ini melompat2 nak keluar.
Cam businessman pon ade, cam badass kampung Chungnam pon ade.  Mamat nie pakai aje la apa pon, sentiasa The Fashionista. But then, klu tak pakai apa2 pon.. hehehehe ... >/////<

Proud. Yes. Always will be.

Would it be fun?

habahaba...
Nape tetibe je aku buat blog nie? Hmm..maybe sebab kat sini aku boleh lagi meroyan kot as compared to twitter or facebook.
I promise i'll try my best to update this blog, so see you ppl again ^^